Perspective...

Well, I have learned something tonight about perspective. I could use one word to describe it, but the most polite way to define perspective is this...it's a swift kick in the emotional pants.

This has been a very difficult weekend for a very important person in my life and I have taken this very hard. But tonight I watched a documentary on CBS called 9/11. I can't say that I am feeling better about the situation, but it has shown me where I need to focus my prayer. I was feeling sorry for this loved one, sorry for myself, and just generally down in the dumps. The documentary brought back a lot of feelings that I had buried deep down in 2001 and I was hoping they would not rear their ugly head ever again. However, tonight I am faced with a range of emotions that I cannot possibly express in words.

Tonight I watched the TV just as I did 5 years ago and I saw people dying...people who lost loved ones...people who were lost in more ways than one. The guilt I felt back then came crawling back and is now sitting heavy on my chest. I have problems, but right now they seem insignificant. I don't want to belittle the problems, but at this point in time I am just in need of peace. The only one who can bring peace to my life is God and I am so grateful to Him and his unfailing love. It is the only thing I can count on from day to day. Now how's that for perspective?